Questions
Today alot of questions have suddenly reached my mind. First i start off with this scenario that was just only this morning.
Case 1
Prologue
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After a late night out celebrating with Joven and Brennan for his 20th birthday, I return home late grab a shower, pack my bag and go to sleep.
Scenario
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I wake up and find the sky nearly bright it looks like it is already 7.30 and by golly it was. I got up and stamped out the room to look at the clock. I quickly got dressed and my quick bustle of activities woke up Gaya, the maid. She was to wake me up at 6am for school as usual. She says sorry that she did'nt wake me up on time and says she did'nt know it was a school day. I pull together my things and quickly bustle out of the house. I grab a cab and I'm nearly late for school. By the time i arrive in the class it is 8.10am and I had just spent 12.80 to get to school by cab because i had a math test this very morning.
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Fast forward to the evening's events
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We are told all the time to tell people if they are wrong so as to correct them if they do wrong things by telling them nicely and politely. In the bible and both as part of respect to elders we are told to give as much face to adults when reprimanding them. When it is more of their fault and we talk to them maturely to point out their mistake is it wrong?
I just reprimanded Gaya for waking me up late and i spoke in a tone that was entirely calm and I did'nt even raise my voice except to silence her when she tried to overrule what i had to say. I told her i was regardless late for school and I had to pay 12.80 for the cab fair. I reminded her that i cannot make this kind of error because should i miss the 15 minute mark from the time lesson starts i will be marked absent.
She then says she dosen't know it was a school day because she thought it was May Day and thought that it was a public holiday and that I should have set my alarm clock in order to wake up for school.
At this point i remind her that it is HER job to serve the family regardless and that even if she made a mistake, it is HER fault then she says i'm blaming her for not waking me up in time for school. YES i admit i should have set my alarm clock BUT what is the rationale here? Who is paying who? Who's job is whoose? She is paid to serve the family, clean the house and follow our instructions. If she made the mistake it is clearly HER fault and it is HER job not mine.
To add to this she says she is sick and is not feeling well thats why she felt very tired and forgot to set her clock. Then this is the part which strikes me. If she WAS sick why did'nt she tell anyone? If she was sick and did'nt have the money she should have at least told mum she was sick. Even so told ME so i'd wake up on my own. I reminded her we are not devils and we're not going to kill the people who work for us and that she's been with us for so long we treat her as part of the family. IF she had at the VERY LEAST told me that she was sick I would have set the alarm clock myself and woke myself up since i do so every Sunday. Otherwise it IS her job to wake me up as well as any other member of the family unless otherwise instructed.
She tries to pay me back the 12.80 for the taxi fare when i clearly told her i did not demand the money be repaid. That i was just reminding her. She then starts to cry and even though i have kept the neutral and calm tone she refuses to talk or acknowledge me. I leave her be and go back to my room to type this. I may have come home late from Brennan's celebration but where in the world is there a rule that says one cannot spend a late night out celebrating one of his closest friend's birthdays?
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WHO is in the wrong here?
In my oppinion. Yes I am wrong too for not waking up myself and setting my alarms but WHO is in the greater wrong? The very fact that it was HER job and not mine to wake me up and that my part of the job was to get out of the house and get to school already shows that it was more her fault then mine. The fact that she did not even tell anyone she was sick and that the fact I would have woken myself up instead also further enforces the point.
I wanted to share this little encounter with my readers if there are any so that i can be enlightened. Tell me if you think I am wrong and why. I further stress that anyone who replies to this request be mature in your answer and not give some half cooked remark.(Readers do comment in the tag board)
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Case 2
Prologue
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I noticed some opague paneling on the sides of the overhead bridge near NP a few days ago. I was told by Julian it was meant to help protect the girls privacy as they walk down the stairs if they wore skirts.
Normally judging, a normal length skirt would be difficult to peep under regardless of the paneling. Even a regular short skirt would not be easy to peep under. Those in microskirts however will be very easy even for an amateur pervert to peep under with the girl's knowledge.
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My oppinion
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I first address girls generally. What is good about wearing a short skirt or even so a microskirt?
Secondly what is the purpose behind it? To attract boys? To look sexy? (attract boys again anyway) or just to be the centre of attraction and look cool?
Secondly for those who do wear it do YOU know the consequences should you be caught alone at night wearing that microskirt and your skimpy dressing by a cheekopeh(pervert) and you got harrassed or raped?
Thirdly do you know how much of a DISTURBANCE it is for some of us guys who try to excercise chastity?
Here whats i've been thinking about for quite a while today. Is it OUR or simply put the SOCIETY'S responsibility to protect the privacy of people who clearly put don't want to protect their own privacy?
To girls and women who wear short skirts, who is the real problem here?
Us men or boys who film or look up your skirts accidentally or otherwise or yours for dressing so skimpily and increasing the chances that it would happen. Whoose fault is it really?
Speaking wisely, shouldn't you girls also take the responsibility and learn to dress properly?
Anyone with views on this? Leave a message on the tagboard too.
End of today's long blogging.
4/30/2007 08:01:00 pm
Well I'm just bored so i'm blogging in lecture hahaha. Dr Ho is talking about Eubacteria and Archaebacteria. Now she's talking about why Eukaryotes and Prokaryotes are sometimes spelt with a C. Hah.
Tim, Joe, Phil and myself tested out dota during the break. It works at least haha. Too bad life was not as free or fun as we thought it was. zz....
I find myself stuck between decisions. Her , her or her? or even none at all? Sigh hate this part where you have to make a tough decision zzz...I'm going to be a good boy and listen in lesson.
4/30/2007 11:02:00 am
Sunday, April 29, 2007and all is well after a good night's sleep
I guess all bad moods can be countered by sleep. People are always peaceful when they are asleep. No matter how stressed or tormented sleep is a period of unconcious calmness.
Well i woke up on Saturday morning to find that Mr Steven had shifted lesson again to Tuesday. I spent a few hours prepping for band and just sitting around. I got dressed by 11.30 following Julian's call. 11.45 i got on the bus to meet him and by 12.30 we were at school having lunch at Canteen 1. By 12.45 we were in the band room and some of the freshies were already there.
I've not had fun in quite a long time and every time i go for band its a whole new sensation of fun. I don't know why. Its just great. Theres another audition this saturday. For freshies to play for the P & C concert. I don't know most of the section dosen't want to play for it. Not so soon at least.
I can safely say i remember most of their names now. All the freshies at least. Lena, Elfy, Karmen, Michelle, Hui Xian. Cindy is our SL. Yay thats how much i remember lol.
Anyway now its 5.30 i gotta get ready for mass. Warm up and all that. Ready rock steady lets go!
Always wanted to say or type that out hah.
4/29/2007 05:19:00 am
Friday, April 27, 2007Broken echoes and images
I think i'm being half driven to insanity. I don't know why know. It just seems that that strange familiar feeling is coming back again. This time on someone else. Its that feeling that just won't pipe down and let you think.
I've heard the old name many times these past few days. NP band has somebody with that name and everytime i hear it. It still makes me shudder.
Then i'm starting to see someone else everywhere. I could have sworn just today at Thomson plaza i saw her. When i turned around by golly it wasn't. Man this temporary insanity crap is shitty. Damn emotions make us weak. But they make us stronger then strong. I know that it's weak but god help me I NEED this!
Why are we human beings plagued by the dire need for emotion and its strengths and its bondings. Why are we plagued with its strong call for having someone there by your side.
Its foolish. I'm not a fool. I AM NOT A FOOL.
I don't want to make the same mistake i already committed. The set goal in life is already cast in iron. Disturbances are secondary.
If anything good happens. It was because god thought it was good. If nothing good happens. Its because god felt it was best it did'nt happen.
Sigh...just that point in everyday life where I feel like shit. It'll all be gone by the soft touch of day. Hopefully...
4/27/2007 10:15:00 pm
Thursday, April 26, 2007Waiting...
Well i just spent the last two hours playing Stalker at the library because i'm just bored stiff. gotta wait till 6 EVERY thursday for band....lol. its quite still here. Very little movement and sound. So its like really quiet and an odd place for gaming. Lol anyway just updating today so not much to add.
4/26/2007 04:19:00 pm
Wednesday, April 25, 2007Lunch at 141
Well here we are at pizza hut. Haven't blogged in ages. Lessons have been cool, the class rocks. Since yeah they're almost all at this table too. Band was fun on saturday i must say and i've been waiting all weak for the next practice. We're left with only one lecture. Mrs Kwoh and her stupid math rofl...woops not supposed to curse lecturers :D..my bad.
Well I'll probably continue when there's a little more privacy to begin with haha/
4/25/2007 01:40:00 pm
Sunday, April 22, 2007Long day
Band was FUN!, Meeting my new section mates. Lena, Alfie, Carmen and the rest of them whom i'm sure i'll get to know well by name.
I half expected not to be able to fit in. I actually fit in quite nicely into the environment at band.
It was a long day and we played alot of tough songs. Things like Noah's ark and the like. Really difficult. Anyway got church in the morning sleep lol
4/22/2007 12:25:00 am
Friday, April 20, 2007I love school, I love 1F01, I love NP!! WOO!!!
School rocks!
I love my laptop!
O well anyway, its been a long week but miraculously, time passed really quick. Odd yes? It was all going so nicely too. O well next week will be better. More lessons, more people to meet!
4/20/2007 10:59:00 pm
Tuesday, April 17, 2007Living the life
So ends Day TWO of Poly life. I will look back on my days in poly and smile at how well it started out. My tutorial mates rock. Funny , cool and anything you'd expect from people to mix around with. We have people from all diferent kinds of schools, talents and interests. We have a cool mix and we're a cool class!
I admit poly life is not cheap. I've had to pay through the nose to get my notes, textbook and stuff. Its definately not a simple life. Its alot of walking but its alot of fun. Poly life is good! Just like i wanted. A life to keep me busy.I don't like dawdling too long. Thus not enjoying my holidays.
I hope to enter NPCB ASAP. I look forward to be at last be back with a family of musicians who speak a common language. Too long i've been away from band life. At last i shall be back to the days of old.
Well i've gotten the physiology notes binded, finished Kueh's chem homework(can't really call it chem it barely has any chemistry in it) and i met Issac, Fhaizmel, Raymond, Nadya, Nurul and company at TP as i got my notes binded. How great it is to be back with my Juniors...miss the days. Sigh... No time to be reminiscent now yeah?
4/17/2007 07:37:00 pm
Monday, April 16, 2007The day it all began
Well this is like the final point before it all starts. I feel like a paratrooper in the days of 1944, jumping into the dark Norman Skies over Normandy. Hell is already breaking loose as they jump through the doors, although theres no flak as i jump from THIS plane, the battle begins as soon as i hit the ground. Ground Zero. This is where it all begins. The war of 2007-2010 :D . It just feels like a new challenge. Every day a new task, a new challenge. 
Unlike these chaps here in the poster, I won't be carrying a rifle, neither will i fight a war for freedom. In fact i'd be fighting none other then my own personal demons. The dreaded disease and plague of the human race called laziness. If i decide i'm not going to be lazy, these 3 years will be very enjoyable.
As i type this entry, Max is dashing about the room, playing with whatevet his little cat brain thinks is worth playing with. Sometimes it makes me wonder what he thinks. Whether its anything more then, FEED ME, PLAY WITH ME or LEAVE ME ALONE. I wonder whats in his thoughts.
Today's mass was alright, practice zoomed by, I spent today's breakfast with Christine ( Alfred's Mum) , Alfred and Julian. We had some school matters to discuss so we decided such. Brennan, Joven, Daniel , Bro and Joey on the other hand went to TP for Breakfast and chanced upon an interesting sign which Al, Jo, Bren and I were discussing about. It said INDONESIAN GIRLL OPENING SOON STALL 15. It sounds like a brothel is openng in TP. Whats worse is the sign is openly showing its mistake, the font is large and its a shame the owner decided to put it up anyway... poor bugger.
After chilling at TP , Bren and Jo came to my place. Jo needed to print his timetable and we did such. Bren and Jo were playing CNC3 on bro's com and my laptop while i played Jigsaw with Cassandra on MSN. That jigsaw was really mind boggling anyway..and SOMEONE claimed CNC is more meaningful then a jigsaw HMM? :D
Right now i'm just trying to kill time waiting for my hair to dry before I go to bed so that it doesn't come out in the morning looking like a pompom.
It feels dry now. I'm pooped and I've got a long day ahead. Time to go to sleep but FIRST, Loco in Acapulco! Only on Ben's desktop computer! I'm feeling lame heh.
4/16/2007 12:21:00 am
Friday, April 13, 2007Lets get ready to roll!
Gotta get back to the mood, be serious. I gotta be up really early all over again. Gotta be ready.
I'm just so excited that school is starting that i can hardly contain myself. The boredom is going to end AT LAST. I hate being idle for so long and finially its going to start. New people to meet, New places to see and new things to do!
Can't wait for it! Two days and 3 hours seems too long to wait
4/13/2007 08:42:00 pm
Wednesday, April 11, 2007So I went to school yesterday to get this laptop done up. It was interesting to meet some of my new schoolmates and possible classmates. Everyone's REAL friendly and thats a plus side. Today I'm going down for the briefing. I wonder what new faces we'll see. Well at least i can mark it down safely to say i can leave the house at 8.15 to get to school by 9. Well thats all for now.
4/11/2007 12:48:00 am
Tuesday, April 10, 2007Sigh the timetable looks like shit......2 hours of math on a monday morning! Argh...curse you math and the numbers that go with you. I have 3 hours of lab on a tuesday morning? WTF 3 hours of practical? Another 3 hours of practical again on wednesday at 9am. Technically the whole of thursday is a lecturre and some physics at the end of it. Friday no school whopee...
Sigh in the morning gotta go to school. Chao
4/10/2007 02:30:00 am
Sunday, April 08, 2007Easter Sunday/Vigil
Yesterday's Vigil mass was a blast, i enjoyed myself and it TRUELY was an EXPERIANCE. Its rare you get a chance to feel THIS good. I feel so hyped but its time for sleep so ill keep it short. Today was a good mass except for that DISTURBING PIPA from the temple apparently the turd was trying to compete with us in volume. Nuts to him. Regardless today was great.
Alright off to bed. This marks the end of my busy days for now. A free man again. Whoppee...zzzz..boring...ok sleep time.
4/08/2007 01:12:00 am
Thursday, April 05, 20074th Day
Well now i begin the fourth day and looky here its Maundy Thursday. Well can't say that the week was 100% enjoyable. I got CnC3. Joven got me to do his laptop back to XP so yeah i'm going to do that. To kill time we played some CNC 3 with my laptop and my desktop. About 2 hours of CNC fun yeah?
We then went down to music essentials and Plaza Sing's Yamaha to get my sight reading books. I met Khoo Boon at Plaza Sing's Yamaha, he was on the job so yeah. Cool man a job at Yamaha!
Went back home and by that time it was ... 6.30pm. Played more CNC till around 8 and we left for church. Bren met us up and he and Jo went up to attend rehearsal. I stayed downstairs and did the scoring for two hours and realized i could pick up wireless SG from TP at the church. I had MSN and scored for that two hours and after the guys got off we went to eat at Prata Cafe in the by meeting a small group of BPSS councillors who were nearby. I spoke to Raymond about his dealings and went off to eat. I got back did more CNC 3 nod campaign and finished it. I'm playing the Scrin Campaign now but i'm too tired. Gotta get to do Joven's laptop in the morning. Sleepy.
4/05/2007 03:10:00 am
Wednesday, April 04, 2007Yet another!
So my second day of slacking after my contract at aviva. I'm missing work seriously. Really sad to leave.
This song has been on my play list for quite a while.
The end of the innocence - Don Henley
Remember when the days were long
And rolled beneath a deep blue sky
Didnt have a care in the world
With mommy and daddy standing by
When happily ever after fails
And weve been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers dwell on small details
Since daddy had to fly
But I know a place where we can go
Thats still untouched by man
Well sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
You can lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defenseBut this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
O beautiful, for spacious skies
But now those skies are threatening
Theyre beating plowshares into swords
For this tired old man that we elected king
Armchair warriors often fail
And weve been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers clean up all details
Since daddy had to lie
But I know a place where we can go
And was away this sin
Well sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair spill all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
Who knows how long this will last
Now weve come so far, so fast
But, somewhere back there in the dust
That same small town in each of us
I need to remember this
So baby give me just one kiss
And let me take a long last look
Before we say good bye
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
I heard this on the radio a few weeks ago and i never really got around to featuring the song on this space. Its an old one of course, you young dudes looking for rock musing, sorry wrong genre.
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I went back to Bishan Park Secondary yesterday, I really miss the place. When I was a Bpsian i told myself why the hell was I in the shithole called Bishan Park. Now i've left i suddenly feel PROUD to be a Bpsian. People from BPS are not smart, intelligent, talented or special in anyway, but damn i'm happy to have been part of the BPS family.
Poly is set to start soon and the week is full of events. Maundy Thursday, Good Friday , Easter Vigil and Easter Morning. What a long week! Hopefully i'm still in one piece by next week (I should be), I can't wait to get back to school. Eager to meet new people.
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On an offside, I've been on a thought here. If i could selectively choose to forget certain people or experiances in my life, what would i erase from it? All the pain and sorrow? The good moments with someone that is far out of reach? All i know is that at the back of my mind i wish i could forget some things and have a clean slate again.
Just a thought though. Hmm