Ah finially. Finished the work for today. Kavi's story, the chemistry homework. Now time for relaxation. Sigh....bored. It feels so wierd to have Yee Ju finially not cussing me. It feels great at the same time to have a new friend who i thought was lost to me forever. I hope this can keep up. I hate going to war with people i know. I don't like scolding my juniors either. I hope you guys understand. Its for your own good that i'm strict. In sec 1 i was really rude to my seniors. Fang Yu and Debra. They got really pissed at me for that period and that earned me a scolding and pumping. At that i learned my lesson. I don't want that to happen to any of my juniors its just sad. It makes my heart ache everytime one of you disrespects me or anyone of the seniors. But thank you Yee Ju for understanding.
Sigh..Sunday approaches...
I still won't get to talk to that person. Its tragic. We have the some interests in common. Shame i think she's already taken..sad.
What am i talking about????? Focus man!
6/30/2005 07:37:00 pm
Wednesday, June 29, 2005Dilema
Its a off set situation...The band requires i tone down my language to a simplified form so that people understand me. Bro tells me that why should i sacrifice my standard because they have not reached it? What is right??? I can say that today was sorta ok..for once in my life i feel at ease the relations between many people have ceased today and entered neutral stance. I hope itstays that way or improves in the positive direction. Guess i gotta retype my speech. Simplify and change detail
6/29/2005 06:41:00 pm
Monday, June 27, 2005What do you want?
Usually i love and enjoy band practice. But today is the one day i hated it. I was told to do warm ups for the band. I had people giving me black faces and the like. I had also people who told me i'm too strict. I already slack so much and they still say so fierce and strict. So i put this question to you. WHAT IS YOUR BLOODY DEFINITION OF NOT STRICT? I should not even be listening to YOUR comments i should be doing what i think is right. and by god damn i will go by what i feel is right.
6/27/2005 07:12:00 pm
Saturday, June 25, 2005MEDIC
Paintball was fun. They used REAL rifles. Modified M4A1's to shoot paintballs which are actually balls containing food colouring. The feel to be under fire is great i love it. Its fun. I was the last man in the 2nd round. I was killed in a real bad way. Two shots to the head, one to the mouth, one to the chest. Damn i died a horrible death had those been real bullets. I fragged only one person. In total i only got shot 5 times. One to the back of the neck. The rifle's gas cylinders were not changed. They were damn inaccurate i was at point blank range with one guy and shot 6 rounds at him but missed all he fired 6 rounds too and missed all as well, Its like WTF?
Fun experiance none the less!
6/25/2005 04:17:00 pm
Bright idea!
Tommorow we're going to have paint ball with the BF nuts. or more like today...anyway i'm going to wear my LTC 05 shirt. It has camper written on the back..Gamer's you know what i mean heheheh. Anyway I just figured what i want to name the story i've been contemplating for so long...In the footsteps of a leader.
It will be about an individual's experiance from follower to leader. His transistion from the person that follows to the indivdual that everyone wanted to follow and his journey there and the hardships he went through. I name this story so because this reflects what i've been doing for the past 2.5 years. From follower to soon to be leader. But i'll be continuing the path of the soon to be leader to become the leader. I've had to take some very hurting truths which i never want to hear again. But as the saying goes. The truth always hurts. I know that i am hated by many for being so detailed and history like. Its my way of life and if ya'll don't respect that then well i just live in a world of hate. Hate and I are friends if i am right to say that. But to the person who was forced to reveal the hurting truth because of pressure. I forgive you. I never hate the person who hates me for being who i am. I do this because i am a catholic and we have to follow our ways of life and religion. Love your enemies. No matter how much people hate me i still endure them and i never have real hate for them. To YJ no matter how much you have pissed me off till that much, i never really hated you. I just take it on as something i see everyday. Well i better get to sleep or i'll be shot by a paint ball tommorow in the head.
Astalavista compadraes
6/25/2005 02:16:00 am
Thursday, June 23, 2005Yesterday's band practice was ok. We did Drills and PT most of the day and had like only a few hours of band pract. I have to copy like 30 CD's i'm like damn..but hell i need to get my ass moving abit. Anyway i did BF 2 today. I'm getting good at the sniper rifle and grenade launcher.
6/23/2005 02:01:00 am
Wednesday, June 22, 2005Went for the BF 2 launch event at first i was like shit. SAF gonna get trashed badly today but WTF.
WE WENT IN AND ENDED UP FIRST!!
DO YOU KNOW HOW GLAD I AM!???
I"M SO LIKE WTF?????
I"M JUST SO HAPPY!!!!
We played every match well and our opponents said so too. I must say of our opponents that they are very sporting competitors. ALL OF THEM. I thank them for being the persons they are. To my team mates WOO HOO!!
But today. My faith in god has risen so high. If i thought the retreat lifted my belief. Its even higher now. My faith in god is so high now. I'll believe in him. I prayed for every match and we won every match.
3 CHEERS AND 3 CHEERS AND 3 CHEERS FOR SAF
HIP HIP HOORAY
HIP HIP HOORAY
HIP HIP HOORAY!
6/22/2005 12:17:00 am
Sunday, June 19, 2005LTC has been hell for the past 3 days. I hated especially PT. The amazing race was like the march the Germans took when they fell back to Rhine river. Damn it was nearly 30 click for us and we did'nt hitch a ride. We walked it all. From the camp to Labrador Park to Mt Faber to Kent Ridge to West Coast to the Camp! So tiring we started at 8.30am and ended at 9.30pm. Now my legs are aching. I'm back early for church camp weeee. I pity those people still there..
Sky promised that she would take me somewhere for my birthday for lunch together with TY i don't mind. Its very nice of her. Just as long she don't force me to keep going with green tea and no water hahha.
6/19/2005 07:58:00 am
Tuesday, June 14, 2005Had a great day of Battlefield 2 today. So fun i can say. Especially storming that Aircraft carrier. I finially solved the FPS problem. All i had to do was update my Chipset drivers and Bios drivers and vioala i got a great FPS. Before i had 10 FPS and a drastic drop to 2 FPS in Benchmark 05, then when i checked again i got a good jump to 20+ FPS without any dropping. After i changed the AGP size to 128 it definately helped too.
Fhaizmel your PC is the wierdest contraception i have ever heard of. I would love to look at it and see what you mean by can't be opened. Anyway i've said before the problem is that your HDD is not connected. Not seen detected even in bios points straight to that OR your HDD is corrupted.
End!
6/14/2005 01:18:00 am
Thursday, June 09, 2005I could'nt care less. I don't really want the posts anyway but HELL NO i'm totally against a single leader. That has totalitarian written ALL OVER it. Unless that leader is a good one will i accept totalitarian leadership. Its not like i care really. I don't really care if i get a post or not. The post means nothing to me. I just want a proper ruling in the band with my ideas in place. I never want to be a leader i just want to be that great thinker who helps them. Its difficult for Fharil i know to accept that my batch and if he says so even me suck so bad. I pity him for looking up to us and hoping us to become good leaders. But i can say we have let you down. I never had faith in my batch anyway. They are good friends but they are just like this saying. "The Generals? They are aplenty but are'nt good for much!" I feel bad when i hear you shout that we are pointless. Its degrading to you as it is to myself and them. But some are thick and don't heed the word. I myself i try to be someone who is respectable but i don't get that from people. For being smart i'm targeted as naggy , smart alec. For being thoughtful i'm also thought as naggy. For trying to be funny i'm also targeted as naggy. What is wrong with this? I think i see naggy 3 times. Sometimes i know i slack off i know that i should'nt be joking with Fhaizmel but sometimes its just the moment. Wise leaders have said that , The band must be a family. But isn't a family one that laughs and has fun? In my opinion a family that laughs and plays and also has the respect for each other is a good one. Its just hard to decide if i stop talking to the persons i find most enjoyable. I won't find band as fun as it would be anymore. Friends are what make band fun. Playing an instrument and playing music and learning is fun. But friends make it even better. Band just would'nt be band if i never talked to Fhaizmel or Lukman or Yao Zhun.
Never mind these are my views i don't really care what people think.
and i feel great today no more stomach pains no appendicitis
6/09/2005 02:48:00 pm
Wednesday, June 08, 2005The pain is abating a little bit...but there are still sharp brief moments where i suffer a great deal of it. It stings so much that it hurts till i wanna just die. But thats only for a little while. I wonder how will i survive if i dun stay at home...
6/08/2005 02:13:00 am
Tuesday, June 07, 2005I don't feel much better today in terms of my stomachache i fear i may have appendicitis....gulp...i don't think i want surgery to remove it...damn...can't bear to think. I do hope that i am wrong.
6/07/2005 09:19:00 am
Monday, June 06, 2005Now no headache or fever..now its just a frickin hell of a stomachache.....I tried burping to get the gas out, i retched because it got so frickin unbearable but apparently its not doing much good...haiz....
6/06/2005 10:35:00 pm
Damn i'm feeling really sick....crazy headache bad stomachace....slight depression..haiz..i need something to do.
6/06/2005 06:03:00 pm
Saturday, June 04, 2005I just discovered some easter eggs in the Starwars episode 6 movie, DVD. Those who are sharp and remember the new movies of 2 and 3 you'll see the things i'm telling you.
If you look closely enough in the last few scenes. Especially the parts where they are filming the capitol city of the old republic during the celebration chapter. You can just see the Jedi Temple as featured in Episode 2 and 3 in the background as the ship flys upwards. Then if you look closely enough and it did catch me aback...the part where the ghosts of Anakin, Yoda and Obi Wan appear. The ghost of Anakin...is the same actor as they used in 2 and 3!
Another not so evident easter egg is Darth Sidious aka the Emperor...it is either they make him look so much like the actor in the 3rd movie or it is the same guy. A closer look at ALL the featured characters besides Yoda you'll see a strong resemblance between their earlier counterparts from Episodes 2 and 3. Very strong resemblance especially Obi Wan. If you ask me Lucas Films made quite a good job in making the movies connect.
6/04/2005 12:05:00 pm
Friday, June 03, 2005Now i know how the men of the Seal teams and their early predecessors felt..during their UTD/R and BUD/S courses... Aching arms, Cramped muscles and a hell week. Man i've never felt happier. I feel like i've been beaten by sticks too many times to count. I'm just aching all over. But now training is over...the war begins for Cohort 2005 to begin its journey to the front. Who will become the casualties of war and who will survive will not be known. My comrades, be ready , bring swift and decisive leadership to our men!