I feel like ranting today....first rant...
I hate people that act like stuck up bastards like TLWM who i feel is a complete bastard. He feels that he can make people do things. I control people? My foot i do, you were'nt even an exco and you demanded us to give you authority. People give you power you bei song, they take it away you bei song, i give you someone to work with bei song, i take away someone you work with you don't want also wtf you want? Stupid bastard.
Second rant. I hate people that try to control others. Just because somebody wants to do something you can't or don't want to do, dosen't mean he or she has to listen to you. You'd be wiser to let them be.
Done with ranting. Just two.
Today was the EL prelims. Not bad i'd say, but i feel twitchy. I have a bad feeling about it. The bio pract prelim also abit twitchy. Skeptical i'd say.
Today's pract with joven cancelled. Dang he's getting lucky , i envy him.
Two of my friends are fast achieving their romances, and where am i ?
Back at square one. Deciding where to go.
I think i've resigned to thinking i've lost the initiative. I better move on. But not now of course. Plot the course but travel it when the weather clears. That seems reasonable.
I was talking to Joven on Sunday, when i told him i was giving up on her and he told me that god has given me another chance with a different person just that i don't see it as a viable option. He hinted strongly at it. But i feel rather unwilling to put any names here. Don't want any unwanted attention.
Well away from that, yesterday Daryl and Kevin came over for a while. Under my block we were staring into a drain which had a few dead or dying roaches and some ants picking up the "scraps" of roaches. We observed the ants picking away at a 3/4 dead roach. Only his head remained on top and his lower body was dragged nearly 10 cm from where it should have been. We were talking about how black ants are democratic capitalist, many workers few soldiers. How red ants are communist with many soldiers and high production as well. The list went on. We saw a soldier black ant patrolling the drain and we watched him intently. Kevin exclaiming, hey look a land rover as he pointed to the soldier ant. Daryl sick of watching the ants decided he wanted to disturb the peace. He sezied a few pebbles and dashed them into the drain and eventually took a large stone he called nagasaki and dropped it in. He then found a hiroshima sized stone or brick actually and dropped it in smashing the soldier ant's back legs. It ran into a stone for cover and he blocked it off using another stone. Mind when he dropped the stones a dust cloud erupted. It looked quite funny but eventually we got bored and we left the ants alone and they scrambled out of the nest again (they retreated in during the "bombardment") and picked at the roach again.
Anyway pretty much sums the days up. I'd appreciate names in the tag board instead of anonymous so i can address you properly and know who i'm talking to..
8/29/2006 11:26:00 pm
Sunday, August 27, 20061.05pm by the desktop clock. I just finished a great night with Daryl and Kevin. Although without a mike i can't play much with them. Sigh... Anyway a pic from tonight's tour of duty.
IF you zoom in you can see that i've killed 3 people with a shotgun. If you've seen carefully enough, you'll realise they're from 3 different clans. Bf.Nut, JEDI and STG. How cool eh? In one go lol.
Anyway bro downloaded a really nice song its called St Elmo's fire or Man in motion as it may be known. Its the main OST for the movie St Elmo's fire. But it was orginally intended for an athelete struck by back problems. The song itself is uplifting and inspiring. Here are the lyrics.
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St Elmo's Fire (Man in Motion)
Growin' up, you don't see the writing on the wall
Passin' by, movin' straight ahead, you knew it all
But maybe sometime if you feel the pain
You'll find you're all alone, everything has changed
Play the game, you know you can't quit until it's won
Soldier on, only you can do what must be done
You know in some way you're a lot like me
You're just a prisoner and you're tryin' to break free
I can see a new horizon underneath the blazin' skyI'll be where the eagle's flying higher and higher
Gonna be your man in motion, all I need is a pair of wheels
Take me where my future's lyin', St. Elmo's Fire
Burning up, don't know just how far that I can go (just how far I go)
Soon be home, only just a few miles down the road
I can make it, I know I can
You broke the boy in me, but you won't break the man
I can see a new horizon underneath the blazin' sky
I'll be where the eagle's flying higher and higher
Gonna be your man in motion, all I need is a pair of wheels
Take me where my future's lyin', St. Elmo's Fire
I can climb the highest mountain, cross the wildest sea
I can feel St. Elmo's Fire burnin' in me, burnin' in me
Just once in his life a man has his time
and my time is now, I'm coming alive
I can hear the music playin', I can see the banners fly
Feel like you're back again, and hope ridin' high
Gonna be your man in motion, all I need is a pair of wheels
Take me where my future's lyin', St. Elmo's Fire
I can see a new horizon underneath the blazin' sky
I'll be where the eagle's flying higher and higher
Gonna be your man in motion, all I need is a pair of wheels
Take me where my future's lyin', St. Elmo's Fire
I can climb the highest mountain, cross the wildest sea
I can feel St. Elmo's Fire burnin' in me
Burnin', burnin' in me, I can feel it burnin'
Oooh, burnin' inside of me... (to fade)
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On a final note before ending tonight's or today's early morning entry/late night, St Elmo's fire is both a movie, a song and at the same time an actual phenomena. The picture above demonstrates what St Elmo's Fire is. The phenomena can be seen at sea most of the time. On high pointed objects. In the olden days on wooden ships, the fire seemed to be burning the masts. Or in a sense an imaginary fire. Cool eh?
8/27/2006 01:07:00 am
Saturday, August 26, 2006Its been awhile since i updated because everytime i tried, blogger was down. How pathetic...
Anyway nothing new this week, attended the PESA awards ceremony. Damn some of them speak so well. Anyway met up with the south cluster people. It seems that the south cluster people are the most friendly of all of them. Or so i heard. Anyway on Thursday before the awards ceremony. I finally managed to finish a maths paper on time! WOOT!. MATHS JUST GOT OWNED AND PWNED!.
Daryl let me Ghost Recon and Dawn of War. Ghost recon is fun but haven't got time to play it yet. Sorry guys could'nt play BF2 Last night. Was doing some work. Was away from my phone too. Anyway yeah i gotta go ..
8/26/2006 11:49:00 am
Sunday, August 20, 2006Another week come and gone. Thursday's maths paper was tough...First Toa payoh Secondary Maths papers definately aint easy. Spent alot of time doing it. By the end of the day i was really tired my mind was so boggled. I took the night off with Kevin and Daryl to play BF2. It was fun but the damn server kept crashing. Got the better of myself and decided it was time to sleep and finished all the last minute comp stuff and went to bed. Friday was a TOTAL waste of time. Friday i literally only came for Biology class. English , there was literal no lesson. 2 Periods of A maths and no Bio Remedial what a waste of time...
Passed Saturday by like nobody's business. I did abit of the Chem papers, i'm nearly done with the Pierce paper. I'm going to do the Braddel Westlake Paper soon. I really tired and i feel like sleeping soon so i'm gonna keep this short.
I'm going to attend the PESA thing on Thursday and Mdm Kavi wants me to look my best and get a decent haircut. I'll do that tommorow. Sigh sleep awaits. Gotta be up by 4.45AM, maybe i'll play abit of BF2 later to wake up my mind while i brew the coffee. People who read my blog will probably wonder who gets up at 4.45 am on Sunday to go to church. Who prepares all their clothes and stuff the night before Sunday for Church? I don't understand why i do it but i just get stuff ready. Beats me why. For one thing i know. Before the major exams, the O levels that is. I'm going to spend the day before O levels at church. For God's Grace. Good Night.
8/20/2006 12:56:00 am
Tuesday, August 15, 2006So today's O level English went all right and i thank god it did. I went to church yesterday and i think he answered my prayers. When i got home i got out my sax and started playing the different church tunes i remembered and did the same on the flute. I think the people i prayed for managed their way too. Today i went for mass again. I saw a whole lot of people and i guessed right. Youth would come today. I guessed it right. The 11am Flautist is damn good..makes me feel crappy because he started learning later then me....argh! When i have time off from studying i'm going to work out that tone. I did some reading and tried out earlier and i think i got an idea of how to get about doing that.
On a personal note, i don't know what i want. Or who i need. Its kinda funny. It was her originally but now its like the road got fogged and now its a path of many different roads. What do i really want?
Home by Micheal Buble
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Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home
8/15/2006 10:53:00 pm
Sunday, August 13, 2006I owe the world something
As if a god smited me with his fist and i woke up from the Singaporean Dream.
All those times where someone needed me and i was not there to give my help. The world owes me nothing. I owe the world something! I'm going to help the people who asked and wanted my help but i have not done my duty as a true friend to help them! Many have not met a catholic but i will make sure if they meet me they'll have the right impression!
A song that means alot to me.
By David Haas
Magnificat
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All that I am sings, of the god who brings new life
to birth in me. My spirit soars, on the wings of my lord.
v1
My soul gives glory to the lord rejoicing in my saving god.
Who looks upon me in my state and all the world will call me blest.
For god works marvels in my sight and holy holy is god's name!
v2
God's Mercy is from age to age on those who follow in fear.
Whose arm is power and strength and scatters all the proud of heart.
Who cast the mighty from their thrones and raises up the lowly ones!
v3
God fills the starving with good things, the rich are left with empty hands.
Protecting all the faithful ones, remembering Israel with mercy.
The promise known to those before and to their children forever!
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Now many will wonder why i think this is meaningful. If one looks closely at the lyrics they mean alot to a person. Especially a catholic or a fellow christian. Music has the power to sway, the power to inspire. The power to make the timid to become the powerful.
8/13/2006 08:00:00 pm
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Its here!! Woo hoo! The Saxoflautist can start his work!
The only problem i have about it is that the low notes have a gurgle sound which can only be erased in two ways.
One by dropping an object like the mouthpiece cap down the bell or taking in more mouthpiece.
Otherwise its great.
I went out with dad and bro to eat lunch earlier today. Then went to see Grandma and then dropped bro off at church and then
later went by yamaha and by pure luck, they let us buy it at the discount price! Man it feels great.
I later went to meet Joven and Aaron for instrumentalist practice. Joven came by later and he stayed over here till 7.45 and went for RCIA at 8pm.
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Other then that, Life is not great neither is it unperfect. I need....ah hell most of my friends will know what i need. But it seems hugely impossible because it will never be true or at least how i make it out to be. I have an alternative. But i don't want to be a act on just thought. Sigh..its a dilemma yes?
Eng O Level orals, starts tommorow. My day will be on Monday or Tuesday. God i pray for your help for this.
8/10/2006 09:18:00 pm
Monday, August 07, 2006Prelude to the Begining
By the desktop its 11.52pm on 7th August 2006.
So i took some time ot listen to hellinvader i can say he's got alot of life man. He may not be rich but he's got a caring family. I think i agree with him, the children of today are spoilt. One thing that has been in my mind...Poor familes are caring because they have no wealth but each other. Rich families lose the caring because they're mind is set on materialistic wealth. Savvy? I don't know. It seems quite true but i've yet to see any fact to say otherwise to it. I joined Hellinvader with a game of BF2 just now and i can say we had fun. I killed lime with a PISTOL. GG lah. Mp5ed him first and pistol whipped him. Took his 101 and killed another guy before getting overrun. Really cool.
Well in the morn i need to report at 8am. Till 10am. How cool is that?
I'm going to learn It's raining again Saxophone solo. It sounds so cool man.
Well anyway i can barely keep awake. Good night.
8/07/2006 11:56:00 pm
Sunday, August 06, 2006Well well its 12.15am on Sunday now by my desktop's clock. Its rather late i know, today the Titan quest download finished after 3 days in the queue. I got the taquitos from park way parade too. Anyway i'm ready for today. Mass and paintball altogether.
Somewhere not so far from here someone is dying of loneliness, somewhere quite distant from here, another person is also dying of loneliness. Two people, both lonely. How many more people will be lonely in this world?
I don't know the answer to that question but for one thing i know, one that is quite far, quite sad, and thoroughly depressed is the one. Two less lonely people in the world eh? I'm missing the either half. Although its early to think about it, it feels good to have someone by your side to help you through the times yes?
I see her in my dreams(not that kind of way if you're thinking so), in my thoughts and in my sights. I can't answer every question. Just need some time to think.
National day is coming (false yay), 3 days of school break(1 of which is a half day). Time to recharge and gear up. Tests will bombard let never before. So its time to get ready the bunkers and get out the rifles. The real war is yet to begin. Tests are coming my way.
G'Night , mass at 7am.